An earlier (crude) poem I wrote for my friends Jack & Angie were a tribute to their telling me the horrors of "The Lemon Party". Here I am, just days after Angie has passed. Trying to know how to deal with the cycle of life...and death.
What bothers me most is my inability to know how to share final moments and memories with her when I could. As friends, you do not want to intrude on others as they go through the ugliness of cancer. Chemo, X-Rays, hospital visits, recovery etc. I had wanted to see Angie, I wanted to take her and Jack a "bucket of chicken" so they wouldn't have to cook and worry about the "little" things. Jack kept telling me she wasn't ready, or they were just busy or she was not wanting visitors.
I understood and respected this. After all we are not "family". However, aren't we ALL family? Aren't we all sharing in the experience that is this physical life together? Aren't we all somehow, some way connected through the human experience? Should our love for them have exceeded my respect for their privacy.
I feel selfish for feeling this way. Who am I? It's not my place. But I don't give a shit. I NEEDED to see Angie and to express my love somehow some way. I didn't have that opportunity and I honestly fear it will haunt me for the rest of MY life.
How to I resolve this? Resign myself to the fact that it was as they/she would have wanted it? Who the hell am I to intrude on their time in her life? Or do I just accept it as fate? I just don't know. My wife got to walk with her several times as she was working on increasing her energy just days before she left us. That was THEIR time. That was my wife's way to share her compassion, her love and her final moments with Angie. Why did I not get that same opportunity?! I'm so torn between my love and respect for their need to suffer privately and their need to share EVERY possible (physical) moment THEY could together; and my need for closure.
I guess I need to get over MYSELF, instead, I need to thank God that I had the opportunity to know someone as special...as BEAUTIFUL as Angie is (and always will be). I need to look at the moments that I did get to share with her and just be thankful that I was fortunate and blessed enough to share some of those moments with her. She has impacted me in so many ways...I only hope that wherever she is now, that a piece of ME and the moments that we shared are with her now too.
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Thursday, January 17, 2008
Obama Haters and my response
I received an email from a friend today. I have had MORE than one person say something along these lines regarding Barack Obama. I am a RON PAUL man myself, but this is the exact kind of fascist stuff I receive that I feel I have to correct and educate people on. So first is the original email as sent to me. Second is my response to my friend explaining the reality, I only chose to hit upon a couple of points to make my case. Thankfully, my friend asked me for the skinny, as he knew I would actually give a good answer (I think). lol. Enjoy and please feel free to comment:
"Why vote for Barack Obama"?
Who is Barack Obama?
Very interesting and something that should be considered in your
choice.
If you do not ever forward anything else, please forward this to all
your contacts...this is very scary to think of what lies ahead of us
here in our own United States...better heed this and pray about it and share it.
We checked this out on "snopes.com". It is factual. Check for yourself.
Who is Barack Obama?
Probable U. S. presidential candidate, Barack Hussein Obama was born in Honolulu, Hawaii, to Barack Hussein Obama, Sr., a black MUSLIM from Nyangoma-Kogel, Kenya and Ann Dunham, a white ATHIEST from Wichita, Kansas.
Obama's parents met at the University of Hawaii. When Obama was two years old, his parents divorced. His father returned to Kenya. His mother then married Lolo Soetoro, a RADICAL Muslim from Indonesia.
When Obama was 6 years old, the family relocate to Indonesia. Obama attended a MUSLIM school in Jakarta. He also spent two years in a Catholic school.
Obama takes great care to conceal the fact that he is a Muslim. He is quick to point out that, "He was once a Muslim, but that he also attended Catholic school."
Obama's political handlers are attempting to make it appear that he is not a radical.
Obama's introduction to Islam came via his father, and that this influence was temporary at best. In reality, the senior Obama returned to Kenya soon after the divorce, and never again had any direct influence over his son's education.
Lolo Soetoro, the second husband of Obama's mother, Ann Dunham, introduced his stepson to Islam. Obama was enrolled in a Wahabi school in Jakarta.
Wahabism is the RADICAL teaching that is followed by the Muslim terrorists who are now waging Jihad against the western world. Since it is politically expedient to be a CHRISTIAN when seeking major public office in the United States, Barack Hussein Obama has joined the United Church of Christ in an attempt to downplay his Muslim background. ALSO, keep in mind that when he was sworn into office he DID NOT use the Holy Bible, but instead the Koran.
Barack Hussein Obama will NOT recite the Pledge of Allegience nor will he show any reverence for our flag. While others place their hands over their hearts, Obama turns his back to the flag and slouches.
Let us all remain alert concerning Obama's expected presidential candidacy.
The Muslims have said they plan on destroying the US from the inside out, what better way to start than at the highest level - through the President of the United States, one of their own!!!!
Please forward to everyone you know. Would you want this man leading our country?...... NOT ME!!!
Now for my response:
No problem:
In America, there is a thing we have called "Freedom of Religion". It's called our First Amendment to the Constitution:
"Congress shall make no law respecting an establishment of religion, or prohibiting the free exercise thereof; or abridging the freedom of speech, or of the press; or the right of the people peaceably to assemble, and to petition the Government for a redress of grievances."
This means calling someone out because they are an Atheist (as his mother was) or are Muslim (as his father was) is not only FASCIST, but just plain wrong. He cannot help what religion his parents were or weren't. In addition, if you look, he is currently (and has been for DECADES) a practicing Christian and claims himself to be a Christian and has raised his kids to be Christians in a Christian church with his Christian wife.
The wording of the email below is scary (fascist) for several reasons.
"When Obama was 6 years old, the family relocate to Indonesia. Obama attended a MUSLIM school in Jakarta. He also spent two years in a Catholic school."
Ok...like he said hey dad, I'm SIX...we live in freakin' JAKARTA where 86% (EIGHTY SIX PERCENT) of the population is Islamic with the rest of the population being 6% Protestant, 4% Roman Catholic, and the other 4% being Hindu and Buddhist. Hey Dad...I'm six...put me in a CHRISTIAN school? WTF? The kid wouldn't know to do that!?!
That's like us saying, hey I'm an American, but I was born in Utah, I attended a MORMON school. Umm, that doesn't necessarily MAKE you mormon does it?
Also, it claims that Snopes verifies this type of garbage. I beg to differ...check this out. http://www.snopes.com/politics/obama/muslim.asp
It just goes to show how some people can twist small details, take them out of context and try to create a fear based on the unknown or the exaggerated. Now you know, hope this helped.
"Why vote for Barack Obama"?
Who is Barack Obama?
Very interesting and something that should be considered in your
choice.
If you do not ever forward anything else, please forward this to all
your contacts...this is very scary to think of what lies ahead of us
here in our own United States...better heed this and pray about it and share it.
We checked this out on "snopes.com". It is factual. Check for yourself.
Who is Barack Obama?
Probable U. S. presidential candidate, Barack Hussein Obama was born in Honolulu, Hawaii, to Barack Hussein Obama, Sr., a black MUSLIM from Nyangoma-Kogel, Kenya and Ann Dunham, a white ATHIEST from Wichita, Kansas.
Obama's parents met at the University of Hawaii. When Obama was two years old, his parents divorced. His father returned to Kenya. His mother then married Lolo Soetoro, a RADICAL Muslim from Indonesia.
When Obama was 6 years old, the family relocate to Indonesia. Obama attended a MUSLIM school in Jakarta. He also spent two years in a Catholic school.
Obama takes great care to conceal the fact that he is a Muslim. He is quick to point out that, "He was once a Muslim, but that he also attended Catholic school."
Obama's political handlers are attempting to make it appear that he is not a radical.
Obama's introduction to Islam came via his father, and that this influence was temporary at best. In reality, the senior Obama returned to Kenya soon after the divorce, and never again had any direct influence over his son's education.
Lolo Soetoro, the second husband of Obama's mother, Ann Dunham, introduced his stepson to Islam. Obama was enrolled in a Wahabi school in Jakarta.
Wahabism is the RADICAL teaching that is followed by the Muslim terrorists who are now waging Jihad against the western world. Since it is politically expedient to be a CHRISTIAN when seeking major public office in the United States, Barack Hussein Obama has joined the United Church of Christ in an attempt to downplay his Muslim background. ALSO, keep in mind that when he was sworn into office he DID NOT use the Holy Bible, but instead the Koran.
Barack Hussein Obama will NOT recite the Pledge of Allegience nor will he show any reverence for our flag. While others place their hands over their hearts, Obama turns his back to the flag and slouches.
Let us all remain alert concerning Obama's expected presidential candidacy.
The Muslims have said they plan on destroying the US from the inside out, what better way to start than at the highest level - through the President of the United States, one of their own!!!!
Please forward to everyone you know. Would you want this man leading our country?...... NOT ME!!!
Now for my response:
No problem:
In America, there is a thing we have called "Freedom of Religion". It's called our First Amendment to the Constitution:
"Congress shall make no law respecting an establishment of religion, or prohibiting the free exercise thereof; or abridging the freedom of speech, or of the press; or the right of the people peaceably to assemble, and to petition the Government for a redress of grievances."
This means calling someone out because they are an Atheist (as his mother was) or are Muslim (as his father was) is not only FASCIST, but just plain wrong. He cannot help what religion his parents were or weren't. In addition, if you look, he is currently (and has been for DECADES) a practicing Christian and claims himself to be a Christian and has raised his kids to be Christians in a Christian church with his Christian wife.
The wording of the email below is scary (fascist) for several reasons.
"When Obama was 6 years old, the family relocate to Indonesia. Obama attended a MUSLIM school in Jakarta. He also spent two years in a Catholic school."
Ok...like he said hey dad, I'm SIX...we live in freakin' JAKARTA where 86% (EIGHTY SIX PERCENT) of the population is Islamic with the rest of the population being 6% Protestant, 4% Roman Catholic, and the other 4% being Hindu and Buddhist. Hey Dad...I'm six...put me in a CHRISTIAN school? WTF? The kid wouldn't know to do that!?!
That's like us saying, hey I'm an American, but I was born in Utah, I attended a MORMON school. Umm, that doesn't necessarily MAKE you mormon does it?
Also, it claims that Snopes verifies this type of garbage. I beg to differ...check this out. http://www.snopes.com/politics/obama/muslim.asp
It just goes to show how some people can twist small details, take them out of context and try to create a fear based on the unknown or the exaggerated. Now you know, hope this helped.
Friday, December 28, 2007
Vermillion
Vermillion is the beginning and the end
First light of morn purple violet hues
Broken by the bright white of the sun
Or the snow
Or the clouds
Not to be seen again for the rest of the day
Till the sun tumbles down
The clouds conceal the light
The snow makes colors blend
Like vermillion in the beginning...now the end
Summary: This is my rip-off of Robert Frosts' 'Nothing Gold Can Stay'. Vermillion is the color of sunrise and sunsets. I just thought of it today. Hope you like. Written 1/1/2008
First light of morn purple violet hues
Broken by the bright white of the sun
Or the snow
Or the clouds
Not to be seen again for the rest of the day
Till the sun tumbles down
The clouds conceal the light
The snow makes colors blend
Like vermillion in the beginning...now the end
Summary: This is my rip-off of Robert Frosts' 'Nothing Gold Can Stay'. Vermillion is the color of sunrise and sunsets. I just thought of it today. Hope you like. Written 1/1/2008
Ode to Jack & Angie & the "Lemon Party"
Eyes are shocked
All lines are crossed
The scenes I see are bold and embossed
I can’t believe just what I’ve seen
Man to man let’s talk old farty
And have yourself a lemon party
Not me of course it’s not my bag
I didn’t know what I saw that day
Old men face to face being gay
How was I to know what to expect
One man skinny the other a lardy
Damaged for life by the lemon party
Why did they tell me where to see
www dot was what they said
But by my looking I’m better off dead
I saw things I could have lived without
Old as dirt but hard as a rock
Grampa suckin what rhymes with dock
Thanks Jack, thanks Angie cause of you I’m scarred
My retina seared by what it did see
Searching for that lemon party
All lines are crossed
The scenes I see are bold and embossed
I can’t believe just what I’ve seen
Man to man let’s talk old farty
And have yourself a lemon party
Not me of course it’s not my bag
I didn’t know what I saw that day
Old men face to face being gay
How was I to know what to expect
One man skinny the other a lardy
Damaged for life by the lemon party
Why did they tell me where to see
www dot was what they said
But by my looking I’m better off dead
I saw things I could have lived without
Old as dirt but hard as a rock
Grampa suckin what rhymes with dock
Thanks Jack, thanks Angie cause of you I’m scarred
My retina seared by what it did see
Searching for that lemon party
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
Second Time Around
Boiling blood in my veins runs through
Forgetting a love that I never knew
Come now my love move closer to swoon
Tonight you and I will sleep like spoons
Reveal your thoughts to me be assured
You aren't the first girl ever I lured
Into my trap, though bitter I seem
It seems after our first, all's been a dream
Don't look in my eyes, it may show the pain
I know you'll never love me again
Listen to my voice, let it hypnotize
But to play my game would be unwise
Let me entice, let me draw you in
Let me see if it's your love I can win
Ah, closer, yes, that's it...come very near
It's your soft sweet voice I long to hear
Yes, come closer still, I feel your heat
Beneath your breast I hear your heartbeat
Be wary though, for I may strike
With acts of passion and the like
I'm unfeeling, yet I cry
I'm in pain and I don't know why
I want this second chance you see
I want to hurt you like you hurt me
It should be simple, not hard to do
But all anger evaporates when I look at you
Damn...I hate you I loathe you, you cause me disgust
Please, I beg you to come closer, in me you can trust
Strange things are most certainly abound
Since you've come a second time around.
Written by Dan Johnson during his college years
Forgetting a love that I never knew
Come now my love move closer to swoon
Tonight you and I will sleep like spoons
Reveal your thoughts to me be assured
You aren't the first girl ever I lured
Into my trap, though bitter I seem
It seems after our first, all's been a dream
Don't look in my eyes, it may show the pain
I know you'll never love me again
Listen to my voice, let it hypnotize
But to play my game would be unwise
Let me entice, let me draw you in
Let me see if it's your love I can win
Ah, closer, yes, that's it...come very near
It's your soft sweet voice I long to hear
Yes, come closer still, I feel your heat
Beneath your breast I hear your heartbeat
Be wary though, for I may strike
With acts of passion and the like
I'm unfeeling, yet I cry
I'm in pain and I don't know why
I want this second chance you see
I want to hurt you like you hurt me
It should be simple, not hard to do
But all anger evaporates when I look at you
Damn...I hate you I loathe you, you cause me disgust
Please, I beg you to come closer, in me you can trust
Strange things are most certainly abound
Since you've come a second time around.
Written by Dan Johnson during his college years
Protest
Look down the silos
Look towards the sky
Look in the country's heart
Look at the darkness
Look at the blood
See that the soul is dark
Oh, but that's not why we compromise
Spreading the "truth" but hiding the lies
How many people are gonna die
Oh the time to act is now
We've got movies for weapons
And Weapons for movies
And all things in-between
We've got missiles in the water
And missiles in the air
Oh the time to act is now
And it's time that we all crack down
Shooting stars and shooting men
They never think of now or then
They only want to win my friend
Oh and the time to act is NOW
THE TIME TO ACT IS NOW!
Written by Dan Johnson during his college years
Look towards the sky
Look in the country's heart
Look at the darkness
Look at the blood
See that the soul is dark
Oh, but that's not why we compromise
Spreading the "truth" but hiding the lies
How many people are gonna die
Oh the time to act is now
We've got movies for weapons
And Weapons for movies
And all things in-between
We've got missiles in the water
And missiles in the air
Oh the time to act is now
And it's time that we all crack down
Shooting stars and shooting men
They never think of now or then
They only want to win my friend
Oh and the time to act is NOW
THE TIME TO ACT IS NOW!
Written by Dan Johnson during his college years
Strength in Nature
A bubbling river over pebbles doth run
Much like the heat from the rays of the sun
In September the leaves of a tree doth fall
Sounding much lik a whooperwill's distant call
Soft almost silent yet for those who know
It cometh like the air of a trumpets blow
All things in comparison are much to the like
Yet all things differ from forest glade to mountain peak
A beauty is evident in all that is seen
And we must tell the children we ween
Nature was here long before man
Nature's survival was God's master plan
A tree can stand for all eternity
Such an ancient thing is magnificent to see
Nature shall strive over any tribe or race
Even when Satan rears his ugly face
Nature is strong, it will never fall
Nature survives below nothing, above all
Written by Dan Johnson during his college years.
Much like the heat from the rays of the sun
In September the leaves of a tree doth fall
Sounding much lik a whooperwill's distant call
Soft almost silent yet for those who know
It cometh like the air of a trumpets blow
All things in comparison are much to the like
Yet all things differ from forest glade to mountain peak
A beauty is evident in all that is seen
And we must tell the children we ween
Nature was here long before man
Nature's survival was God's master plan
A tree can stand for all eternity
Such an ancient thing is magnificent to see
Nature shall strive over any tribe or race
Even when Satan rears his ugly face
Nature is strong, it will never fall
Nature survives below nothing, above all
Written by Dan Johnson during his college years.
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